How does the heart break?

Recently I have been asked this question a lot and been asking myself this a lot as well.. 

What makes a heart truly broken? And who says that its been broke in the first place?

Looking back over this past year, I have gone from highs to lows to highs and lows again.

A roller-coaster of emotions that seem never-ending and at times, been the most challenging of my life. But it has been through it all that I've learnt to cling to God..

For He is the only thing that remains constant.. 

Nothing can compare to the heartbreak that God felt, the day he put his son on the cross and had to turn his face away..

And none of my mediocre 'heart breaks' can begin to describe what God felt.. If he did that for me, then why do I question his love? Why do I question where God is or what he's doing? He had a plan from the beginning, so now I'm ready to allow it to happen.. with Christ living, IN ME.

In my RS exam today, the final question was about mercy and how it may be challenging and difficult.. It was there, in that stupid exam hall, that God helped me to understand that its never gonna be easy, but if we are to be like Jesus and follow his example, then I'm ready to try until my heart breaks for those who require the mercy of God and his love in their lives.

No matter what comes my way, if Gods there, then why should I doubt? Why should I even pretend that I have it all together? Because when I fall at his feet, he picks me straight back up, dusts me down and guides me to the place he wants me to be. 

My nanny used to say to me, 'love is limitless', and she is right. 

Jesus loved limitlessly so why do we still find things to limit people with? God never sets limits for who He loves, and so this is what I am going to do.. 

I'm going to love, and not only love, but live with love. I'm going to live my life surrounded by God's love and only then, will I truly begin to love others without limits.

I want God to break my heart...

I want it to break for the lost,

I want it to break for those who need God, 

for my friends and family, 

for those who are in despair,

for those who break my heart..

'I am not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward - to Jesus. I'm off running, and I'm not turning back..' Philippians 3 v12