I havent written a blog in a long time.
I was in Uganda for three weeks recently and when I came home I busied myself with meeting people and keeping my mind off it because I knew i'd only cry and not stop.

Over the past few days I've been feeling distant, upset and just generally quite down.
Tonight, after reading, I felt a nagging to go and write a blog.
I'd just prayed and knowing God wanted something I got up and turned the on.
Going onto blogs I follow and a friend suggested I would like, I began to break down.
I havent stopped crying and am yet to finish.
I read a 'love letter' from God which was completely everything that I needed to have spoken into my life.

I feel that God has placed me in certain places during my life for a reason. There are times that I can look back on and know why God put me there.
Right now, I dont have a clue.
I can only pray and trust that God, who knows me more than anyone, will eventually reveal it to me.

I sometimes forget that God already knows, he knew I was going to look at that blog tonight and he knew that it would be exactly what I needed, so here's what i've learnt.

God loves me.
He knows my heart
and still through all my crap, LOVES me.