Everything's been a bit hectic lately..
I'm in the middle of my exams and finding it hard to look to God, always knowing he's right there but ignoring him anyway because well, he is always there..
Wrong attitude Leah.. You stop talking to a friend and they'll soon stop listening.
God's always been there for me. And recently he's been testing my faith a lot to see if I will actually listen to him. Plans I had wanted to happen, didn't happen and friends are continually falling away from God.
But all through it God's saying, 'i got this'..
Last night at youth we had a fantastic worship session.. A little boy who can be a chancer sometimes started praising God.. Lifting his hands in the air, looking at his hands and then lifting them higher.. It seemed like the spirit had just taken over him and he couldn't help but praise God.. It was beautiful to watch and just made me so in awe of God.
After this I wanted some time alone, to pray and listen, so I went outside.
It was beautiful, so peaceful and was such a quiet night. I constantly love looking at the stars and last night I found myself doing just that.
But there was a massive light shining right in the middle of the sky and it kept distracting me. At first I thought it was a street light, and was angry that in Bangor we have so much light pollution that you can hardly see the stars..
Then I realised it was the moon. In all its splendor and glory, just sitting there as big as can be and waiting for me to notice it and appreciate it..
And just like that it dawned on me..
I'm looking for the stars, when I should be looking at the moon..
God's big.. And he's so big that you just cant miss him.
When I'm looking for the stars, I'm not seeing the moon.
I need to start focusing on the moon, focusing on God and how BIG he actually is, so that everything else will fall into place.
So focused on him, that nothing else matters.
And when I looked at the moon, more stars began to appear.
And when I look to God, everything else, all those little things I worry about, fall into place.
He's bigger than anything I can imagine..
And i'm so excited to see what stars he wants to reveal to me..
I'm still walking, and occasionally I stumble..
But like the moon, God is always bigger.
He's always there and he always will be.
